"No Evidence of a Pregnancy"

[Beleeve]

Hi all. I had a miscarriage at somewhere between 5-6 weeks last week (no idea how far the pregnancy actually got). I guess i just wanted to ask how those who have gone through this felt in the days afterwards.

I feel like a bit of a fraud if i'm honest. I only knew i was pregnant for about 4 days before the bleeding started though i took about 6 tests in total during this time and the miscarriage itself. I know i was pregnant but feel like my brain is almost telling myself i wasn't. Rather than feeling like i've lost a pregnancy i'm starting to believe it was never there.

I bled for about 5 days and passed the actual pregnancy on Thursday, when i had a scan on Friday they said there was 'no evidence of a pregnancy' Those words have really impacted me i think. From then on i've felt like the pregnancy was never real.

I've had my initial bloods back (140 hcg which is really low) and will get the second back today which will finally put an end to it all. I have no more bleeding, no physical signs at all, didn't even have pain with the miscarriage. So all feels like it was in my head.

Is this normal or am i going crazy??

It wasn't in your head. There's no such thing as a little bit pregnant. You've lost a pregnancy or the HCG wouldn't be so high.

It might help to think that they are looking for evidence of a continuing pregnancy because, with those HCG levels at this stage, you could still have an ectopic pregnancy, sadly not viable. So the doctors need to think in those terms. It doesn't mean there's no evidence you were pregnant.

Be aware that you get hormone changes too, and that can ramp feelings up or damp them down. Don't feel obliged to feel any way in particular - just keep an eye on yourself and go easy. There doesn't have to be a rush of emotion now or maybe ever. We experience things differently. It was real and that's okay and you will be okay.

Sorry for your loss @Beleeve , I feel in a similar boat to you, only knew I was pregnancy for about 5/6 days before I started losing it. It’s my 2nd loss although this much earlier , but I felt with this one it wasnt going to hold due to A few things that went on so I accepted the loss before it started. Although I Started bleeding yday with quite large clots and today I’m totally
Overwhelmed by sadness although I’m
Like should I be?? Does it even count? I was only just over 5 weeks, should I feel this way I don’t know.

I guess there’s no right or wrong way to feel with an loss and everyone is different. You were Defos pregnant and something was happening in there but I get what you mean. I can’t offer the ‘right answer’ but just know you aren’t alone. I hope you’re ok xx

Thank you for your response @unnumber I think it is my hormones playing havoc. I'm going for my 4th blood test on Friday as my levels are 14 and they want to see them lower. I do feel like i get to a better place with it then going back to have another blood test kind of brings it all back a bit.

Sorry to hear you are going through the same thing @Blondiebrownie6 I felt exactly the same, when i would read stories of people who had miscarriages much later on i felt i had no right to be sad. That's not the case at all though. I didn't tell anyone about it i so thought a lot about all the events coming up and how i would hide the fact i was pregnant, the fact i would have been just 4 weeks behind my friends pregnancy and how i would tell my parents i'm pregnant. You plan it all from the minute you get that positive result and then in an instant it's gone. How can i be pregnant but not have a baby? I think just take all the time you need, be happy/sad/angry, whatever you need to be, don't hold it in x