5 miscarriages, 1 child, early pregnancy & petrified

[Kay35x]

I’ve had 5 miscarriages got one child & now pregnant again.

I lost 3 pregnancy’s before I had my daughter ( my miracle child as I call her ) then I lost two more after her & I refused to try again I couldn’t keep going through the heartache. Now 9 years on I’ve just found out I’m pregnant. And I’m so petrified scared & just want to cry. I want this baby so much it’s my last chance. But with my history I know this is going to be plain sailing. I’m only 3 weeks in I’ve started getting cramps today. But I’ve not started bleeding I’m hoping & praying I don’t. This is so hard the only 2 people who know tell me to stay calm rest take ur mind off it. It’s not that easy every cramp every cough sneeze I’m worried I’m going to lose this one I’m constantly checking myself in the toilet to make sure I’m not bleeding. Has anyone been as bad as this? I want to be so happy about this but I’m so scared I don’t know how to manage I’ve got 9 weeks to get to that safe zone I can’t bare being this anxious for that long & the stress of it won’t help but I can’t stop how I’m feeling 😢🥺

Not easy at all going through a pregnancy after a loss and especially your losses. Just want to wish you well. Try not to worry and take each day that passes as a win. Someone posted this website the miscarriage odds reassurer and I found it quite helpful. Fingers crossed for you, congratulations.

datayze.com/miscarriage-reassurer

I can really empathise. Pretty much been in exac same position as you. Three miscarriages. My boy. Two miscarriages then fell pregnant again. The anxiety was bloody awful and I was not myself at all - snappy, shouty, irrational.

Sadly my pregnancy didn’t work out.

But OP, I really hope yours does. Just take each hour, day at a time. Xx

I’m going to try my best it just a long time to get to that safe zone. I start cbt counselling on Wednesday for my anxiety after losing my mum I’m hoping they might be able to help with this aswell.