Possibly miscarrying again

[Sarahsammy]

So at the start of the year I had a confirmed miscarriage around 5-6 weeks
Somehow I managed to get pregnant again almost immediately. It’s hard to know how far gone I am (I didn’t have a period in between) but at a guess I’m about 5-6 weeks again... and i’ve started bleeding again today.

I’m absolutely gutted at this point. Last time I blamed myself for tempting fate and telling lots of people. This time we haven’t told anyone, I haven’t felt excited or even thought about plans for the future and I thought maybe it would be better.

I hope I’m being dramatic but it’s so hard to feel hopeful so soon after the first loss
I guess I just wanted to share how I felt, I don’t really know what to expect from anyone, I just felt the need to tell anyone who’s out there

I had bleeding at around 8 weeks because of a hematoma. Just know that there can be multiple reasons for bleeding and miscarriage isn't always it! Call your EPU and get a check up as soon as you can. Best wishes

Thank you for your message, I do appreciate that support a lot 🥰
I know at this stage it could be something innocent but it’s so hard to stay positive. I worry about everything usually so this doesn’t help!

I’ve spoken to my gp this morning and I have to just keep an eye on. At this stage it was only a light bleed, spotting really and nothing else has happened so fingers crossed. It’s just so familiar to what happened at the start of the year that’s all

Hi, I too had spotting in early pg, so many people do. Convinced I was mc at several points but turned out ok. Never found out the reason. All the best x

Sorry your in this boat I know how you feel have had 4 miscarriages my 4th one only getting over nw, I knw how nt feeling excited when you get that positive test cause of a loss but hope everything works out for you. 🍀💚

I made it to 7 1/2 weeks but no further unfortunately.
We had a private scan that confirmed heartbeat at 6.4 weeks, but i’ve had irregular bleeding since then and a scan on Thursday confirmed the heartbeat has stopped.

Having surgical management on Monday as the miscarriage hasn’t started.

Did anyone else feel completely betrayed by their own body? Not only did I fail to keep my baby alive but now I can’t even let it go. It’s breaking my heart.

2 miscarriages in 3 months... I’m gutted 😞 and starting to feel like this will never happen for me. It’s taken me years to fall pregnant in the first place and now I’m so scared that I’m going to run out of time, I’m 40 now and early menopause is common in my family.

I feel like I’m completely broken

I am so sorry, @Sarahsammy. This is just exactly how I felt - I had a MMC and it took me until almost 11 weeks (baby had apparently died at 7) to actually miscarry. It was awful and I'm so sorry you're going through it.

I just want to say - though you know this, really - it isn't your fault. It's not that you couldn't keep it alive - it just wasn't meant to be for this little one, for whatever reason. I still feel a bit as if it was my fault, so I just want to say in case you feel like that too - it isn't your fault.

I really hope you do manage to conceive and carry again soon. Thinking of you during this hideous period.

Thats exactly how I felt OP and I'm so sorry.
I guess what we have to remember is that our bodies don't always do the things they should, whether that be miscarriage, depression, cancer, tooth loss, heart disease, gallstones, so many times things do go wrong. You wouldn't tell someone who has shared with you about the two miscarriages that they have felt, try and extend some of that kindness to yourself.

I echo what PP said.

This isn't your fault.

It's not our faults.

Sending love and thoughts.

• failed, not felt.