I'm not sure what the point is of this thread. I know I'm being daft but just need to write it down.
Been ttc for 2 and half years and had 2 mc in that time. Last one was in December 2020 and I got pregnant again straight away, so I'm 5-6 weeks pregnant just now. I didn't expect it to happen so quick because I was trying for a year or over the previous two times. I know I'm lucky and I'm really greatful, but quite nervous/anxious.
Anyway a friend has announced a few days ago that they are pregnant and due the same time I would have been for the mc I had in December. I can't help feeling sad that it should have been me announcing mine this week too. I feel guilty for feeling like this because im happy I'm pregnant again and I'm also delighted for my friend.
I can't stop worrying that if I have another mc then I will struggle seeing her getting to pregnancy milestones and having the baby knowing my baby will be a similar age. I know I'm being daft worrying about something that might never happen.
Trying to think of positives of having a friend with similar age baby but I cant help feeling the way I do. I feel bad because everyone on our group chat was talking about it and I said congratulations but I couldn't face reading the rest of the messages or contributing.
I hadn't really told anyone but my parents because it was quite early on, couldnt see anyone and I didn't want to put a downer on other people's Christmas. I don't want to tell people now because I feel it would take away from my friends news.
Just feel so emotional about the whole thing