Second MMC - feeling hopeless

[Nixie87]

Hi,
I’m so lost. I had an MMC is Feb2020 which shattered me. I fell pregnant again in October and went for a private scan yesterday as was feeling anxious due to our previous loss. Baby should be 9.5weeks but is only reading at 6weeks with no heartbeat. I’m shattered. I’m convinced something is wrong with me now and that my future will hold more of this. I’m dreading the physical part of losing this one on top of all the mental pain. I don’t know what I’m looking for but I know I feel alone and hopeless and so very sad. Anyone found anything to help them through?

I’m sorry for your loss and sending you love

I don’t know what to say in terms of helping to cope - I have just had medical management of a mmc , at 8 weeks it was only measuring 6 still.

I can only imagine what it feels like to go through a second time and I’m sorry that this is happening to you. I just wanted to reply so you know you are not alone.

I am heartbroken and spending the day in bed watching films and eating cake, still bleeding but I know the main part was over last night so the pain is not as bad as it was.

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring but going to try and look after myself physically and hope that the mental side will follow. I hope you have support around you and that you have a successful pregnancy in future if trying again is what you decide to do x

No advice but sending love OP

Thank you both for your kind words.

@Goatscheesewithhoney I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. I truly hope you never have to go through this again. I think your approach to recovery is amazing, you’re incredibly strong. I am glad the physical is drawing to a close for you and wish you love and strength with the rest.

I do have some support, my husband is amazing. I am struggling to share it wider this time though, going through telling people again after this awful year just seems pointless. I think I’m going to hibernate until I can get the medical management and just hope I can get through it all quickly. My body likes to hold onto them it seems. I can’t blame it for that.

I want to try again. I really want to be a mum. I am so ready for it. But it feels like a nightmarish cycle after number 2 and I’m scared I will never get there. I’m a different person after this year and I’m scared there won’t be much left of me if this keeps happening.

Lots of love to all you amazing women going through this shitty experience. I really hope you all find your happiness xx

I had a missed miscarriage in October, I became pregnant again bfore first period after medical management for the miscarriage, I started bleeding and went for a scan today I should be 5 weeks pregnant but they diagnosed me with a PUL scan shows nothing as to much blood in uterus, had hcg levels checked today and am back in 2 days to check results, best outcome Is early miscarriage hoping it isnt ectopic, bleeding heavily and cramping all day, I have 2 healthy children so ti have 2 miscarriages now back to back has me so confused an lost, sorry to jump on your post. I am sending love its a terrible situation, I also feel like I don't want to try again in fear it will keep happening again and again 😔

@Bubblegum87 I’m so sorry for your losses too. I hope you get some answers soon.

The second one has been hard because that’s when you start to question if it will ever happen. It’s easy to put one down to bad luck but after two you begin to worry that something could really be wrong.

I have no children so am now wondering if I will ever get to experience being a mother, I feel tortured and hopeless.

I wish you strength and future success and hope you get through this difficult time x

I'm so sorry for your losses Nixie, and other posters. I lost two at 11 and 13.5 weeks, very hard physically and mentally. No reason ever found. I found the second much harder in some ways, as it was the point that I started to think that perhaps something was wrong, rather than it just being unlucky.

I don't know if it helps, but I'm currently awake due to a snoozing 5 month old on my chest. I took higher dose folic acid and aspirin this time round, on the advice of the EPU, which may have helped, but honestly I think sometimes it's just chance.

Take care of yourself.

@LittleMissNaice - Thank you for your message, I am sorry for your losses too. It truly does help. It gives me some hope. I’m very happy for you.

I intend to take aspirin and higher dose folic acid next time. I’m regretting not doing it this time round. No idea if there is anything in it but anything is worth a try.

All the best and happy Christmas x

Hi @Nixie87 I'm so sorry. I'm also going through a MMC. Went for a private scan Monday to find out the baby we had seen with a heartbeat 3 weeks earlier had disappeared and just an empty sac. I'm booked in for surgery on Wednesday as I could face the idea on medical management. Although this is my first it is just so tough, so I can only imagine how much harder it is second time around. I posted a thread on the pregnancy board and there are so many amazing stories which I think might help you too

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/pregnancy/4113076-Positive-stories-after-a-MMC?msgid=102903332

Praying this is a painless, both physically and emotional, for you as possible xx

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