Morning
I am part way through a week wait to have another scan, after there was no heartbeat at the last one.
Should be almost 8 weeks now.
I’ve started having pains this morning. There are not period pains though, but a pain I vaguely remember from the end of my last pregnancy, a kind of shooting pain that goes up inside (feels a actual stabbing pain in vagina, is the best way I can describe it
) It is going down my legs a bit too and stops if I sit down but starts if I get up and walk around again. I feel like this might be it (although part of my brain is trying to persuade me I might still be pregnant and it is ligament pain
)
I have a really low pain threshold, I struggle with period pains and did not cope at all well with early labour (needed an epidural before even getting to 3cm as I wouldn’t let anyone examine me due to the pain)
So, I was holding on to the fact that I have a stash of co-codamol in the cupboard from a previous op. However, DH just told me that he cleaned out the cupboard a few weeks ago and threw them away as “he didn’t think we’d need them”. Apparently we’ve got “a couple of paracetamol” down there.
This is going to be really bad isn’t it? I’m starting to get actual period pains whilst writing this, and am curled up and panicking already. I haven’t even got any sanitary pads - I don’t know why I haven’t prepared, I just convinced myself it was some kind of mistake and that I didn’t need ready in case
I just don’t want to do it 