I had 5 years of infertility with 3 miscarriages along the way. It was horrible.
In April this year I was blessed with a gorgeous baby girl who I love so very very much.
However since my periods have returned I have been having flashbacks and everything now seems to be a trigger. The blood, the pain, sometimes even just seeing a pregnant person seems to set me off in to a panic attack. While I'm on my period I can't sleep and my mind races, just like when I was losing those babies. My periods have been heavier and the period pain much worse since I had my daughter and I don't think that helps at all.
Today I psyched myself up to go get a coil fitted as I never had periods when I had one years ago and I thought it might help me get back in control a bit. But when I got there I had a full scale panic attack as soon as the doctor started. I tried to carry on but she told me she couldn't go through with it as I was too upset.
There is no point to my story. I just needed to write it somewhere.
Thank you for reading.