Hi everyone, I’m new here, this is my first time posting, it’s also my first miscarriage and I had a read through other’s experiences on here but haven’t read many that were similar to what I’m going through now.
I found out I was pregnant in September, this would have been my third pregnancy, I have two happy DC, so know those familiar signs. My period is regular as clockwork so had the test ready for the first day of my missed period. Test was positive but started spotting the next day, very light pink, mostly when I wiped, very little on a liner, this continued the same way for 4 days, I phoned EPAS who put it down to implantation bleeding but I was told to do another test two weeks later.
After a long two weeks I done another test, positive again, but started lightly spotting again that night, again light pink and mostly when wiping, this carried on for three days, but it started after DH and I had had sex, so thought nothing more about it until two weeks later again, when I started spotting the night before my second missed period would have started. I was also aware that my nausea was dying down and my boobs weren’t as tender, I phoned EPAS the next day who gave me an appointment to come in for a scan three days later. The spotting continued but this time as well as wiping there was some pink in my liner too. The night before my appointment I noticed some little brown rice sized clots when I wiped. I think at that point I knew something definitely wasn’t right.
At my appointment they gave me a scan, according to the dates the midwife worked out I should’ve been almost nine weeks, they measured the pregnancy at just over seven and saw no heartbeat. Another sonographer came in and confirmed what the first had told us.
I was told to wait in a tiny room for a midwife to see me, by the time I’d waited on her I really just wanted out of there so when she came in I struggled to hear what she was saying but I do remember her saying we had three options and the first was to do nothing and let it happen itself, as soon as I heard that option I was up and putting my jacket back on to go home.
We left with a leaflet with what to expect and she wrote a phone number on it ‘incase I changed my mind about the medical option’.
I got home and my spotting became more like a very light period that night. The next morning I passed a long clot, I couldn’t see it very well with the blood in the loo, it was about the length on my little finger, I had some cramping and basically my usual period type bleeding (which isn’t a lot) for about five days, on the fifth day I had a heavy dull aching down in the small of my back, I took a couple of paracetamol and slept with a hot water bottle on my back.
That next morning I noticed there was more blood in the toilet than there had been, there was a couple of grape sized clots and the ache in my back was gone and the bleeding started easing off.
Today the bleeding is like it is at the end of my period and it’s only been eight days since the spotting became more like a bleed and I have the odd cramp in my abdomen now and again but the leaflet I got from the hospital says that can happen as your body starts trying to return back.
The thing I’m worried most about is a couple of my friends have spoken to me in the past about miscarriages they’d had at a similar stages to me and I remember them telling me about the long hours they spend on the toilet, doubled over in pain, all the blood and clots they lost, wasted bed sheets and pyjama bottoms, most of the posts on here are similar to their experiences too and it’s worrying me that perhaps I haven’t actually gone through the miscarriage at all yet and it’s still to come. I know everyone’s experiences are different but was anyone’s similar to this at all?
I’m sorry for the long post, not many people knew about the pregnancy and although DH is here and has been amazing, it’s not the same as speaking to women who have gone through it, and I don’t feel ready to talk to anyone close about it all yet.