When I was younger I caught Chlamydia and PID off my boyfriend at the time (he had been cheating) and I was told it was likely that I would struggle to conceive. This is something I had accepted and put to the back of my mind as I was still young. Last year I had a suspected miscarriage. My period was late and I'm never late. I was too scared to take a test and then a few weeks later I started to bleed and it was definitely not a normal period. When I went to see the nurse she said it quite possibly could have been and did a pregnancy test which came back negative and said if my periods didn't return to normal to come and see her. They returned to normal. Nobody knew for quite a while, it wasn't something I wanted to share. It's been bothering me now for a while that if I was pregnant I would have had a baby by now, and I've realised I'm not getting any younger. I've recently found out my friend is pregnant, and whilst I'm really happy for her, I can't help but feel sad and that it should have been me. I've wanted a family for a really long time and she's never shown an interest. She doesn't know about what happened last year and I don't want to tell her and spoil her news. Am I a horrible person for thinking like this? I know that all I'm going to hear for the next few months is baby things, and I am genuinely happy for her but I know I will struggle. Does anyone have any advice?