I had my miscarriage confirmed about 3 weeks ago and I passed (I/ hate saying that) my baby last week.
This is my 4th miscarriage ( I do have two children already) but I have really struggled with this one emotionally.
I have spoke to my partner about trying for another baby and he is adamant that he doesn't want anymore. He didn't want any ore babies before I fell pregnant.
Due to obviously grieving I'm really struggling with seeing people being pregnant, announcing pregnancies or the birth of babies. I ache in a way that I can't describe and at the moment it feels like in some sick way I'm being teased.
I hate that my heart aches for another child 100x more than it did a few months ago. It feels as though having another baby is all I can think about. I saw my neighbour bring home her newborn son yesterday and I intsantly started crying. I worry I will be like this forever.
Im not quite sure why I wrote this post to be honest. I think I just needed to express my feelings in a place where I wont judged for feel silly.