Lost baby 21 weeks

[Alicia870]

Found out at 20 week scan. No heartbeat. I'm devastated and feel I should have known. I wasn't feeling movements and think I had around 16-17 weeks. They don't know how long baby has been gone. I feel as though I should have known.
So difficult with everyone knowing but still can't register their birth. Due to go back to hospital in a few days time to deliver. I'm so scared and heartbroken

I am so sorry for your loss.

Alicia,
I am so so sorry... don't feel guilty please.
Thinking of you a lot.
xx
S.

I’m so sorry for your loss

It's so surreal - feel like this isn't really happening. So scared for what I have to face next

I know it feels surreal. It won't be easy, but you will recover :(

Oh I'm so sorry..

I know the pain is unbearable but please hang on. And I know the feeling of reality leaving..

It is not your fault and you can't know these things.

Please know I'm here if you need to talk.

Lots of love
X

My baby boy was born last week. He is so precious. He looked beautiful. Still waiting on his return from post mortem. Every day I feel further away from him. We bury him this week and I don't want to ever let him go. I just want to be with him. I'm so so sad :(

OP my heart breaks for you, I am so sorry you are having to go through this. As a mother I cannot comprehend how your heart must be aching for your baby.
Sending my well wishes as you embark on this painful journey. Just know that you are strong, that you are an incredible mum and you will feel hope again

I am so very sorry for your loss. What is his name?

So sorry for your loss op.

You poor thing. Please don’t blame yourself.

Thank you for asking his name. I'd love to say but won't here just for privacy. Every day I wake up I can't believe this has happened. One minute I'm 5 months pregnant and planning the school he's going to, the next I'm being induced into labour to give birth to him and know that there won't be any cries or warm cuddles. It's just such a difficult time

Hi, my baby boy was born on 11 June at 20 weeks having found out his heart had stopped beating 3 days earlier so I know exactly how you feel. We need to look at arrangements for burial etc now, it’s so hard to even know what to do as it’s a decision you never expected to be faced with x

Just coming back here as a means to get some words out and relieve myself of this heaviness I'm feeling.

My little boy has been buried and now I feel so so empty. I don't want his existence to stop. I can't bear that he's gone before he even had a chance. I know that the conversation stops now as far as others are concerned. No one wants to talk about him or talk about how I'm feeling. I just want to be pregnant again with him in my tummy and growing stronger, with all the plans we had made still just within grasp and about to be real. So sad

@Alicia870 as much as it is awful feeling alone going through this (as I do right now), it is equally awful thinking that someone else is going through it too. If you do want to speak to someone else who is at a similar stage to you then please do message me but if you don’t want to then I completely understand. Take care x

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby boy Alicia. And I am so sorry you have had to experience this.

The same thing happened to me 5 years ago. Like you, I found out at the 20 week scan that I had lost my baby boy. All that you describe in your posts is familiar to me. The grief of the early days felt overwhelming but now travels by my side, I think that is the best way of describing it. Every now and again I mention my loss and most days, if not all, I think of him even if the thought is fleeting.

I'm so sorry. There are no words for this tragedy x

I'm so sorry for your loss x