Trying again

[Hammers00]

I lost my baby boy at 17 weeks which was 8 weeks ago. After my first period was finished we decided to actively start trying, i was convinced that we would fall pregnant the first month as i read in so many places that you are extra furtile straight after, i’m due on in 2 days but did a test today and it was BFN. Everytime i have been pregnant before i got a strong positive 4 days before i’m due so i’m sure i’m out this month. I have been an emotional wreck all day, literally all of my friends have either just had a baby or announced they are 12 weeks since i have had my miscarriage and i just feel so alone. It’s almost like i feel like i have no friends, i know lockdown isn’t helping but has anyone felt like this?
i’m terrified of getting pregnant again as i know il be worried the whole time but i’m devastated that i’m not this month.

Hi I'm really sorry you went through this. I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks and yeah thought I'd be super fertile after. But no it didn't happen for me and so I'm onto trying this next one. If it doesn't happen again then onto the next one. Please don't feel sad, it wasn't your fault. Please have hope. You'll feel sad now looking at your friends but who know what surprises you'll have in the future. They'll be looking at you. Miscarriages are normal. Some people speak about them others hide them. Who knows your friends might have had a mc before and this maybe their rainbow baby. It's hard but be patient and strong. Our time will come too.

@Hammers00 I commented on your post back in April. We went through very similar things.

Have you had any counselling? I’ve been having zoom counselling via the charity ‘Petals’ and it’s been amazing. It has helped me talk openly about what happened and also face the future with hope. I don’t know if it’s something you’d be interested in but thought it was worth mentioning as you said you were struggling.

Making the decision to try again after losing your boy is so brave and I really hope it will happen For you soon