Overwhelmed and anxious.

[Stabal]

I'm up for a scan tomorrow to check if the 2 doses of misoprostal have finally cleared everything and now I'm on an emotional comedown after a pretty brutal physical experience with the medical management. It's my 30th on Monday and when I discovered I was pregnant I joked saying, "I can't believe I can't have a wine when I turn 30" and I just can't stop thinking about it. I'd give anything to not be allowed to have a wine! I feel wrong for even wanting one, it feels like everything pregnancy related is just over so abruptly. I miss the sickness. I miss the day dreaming. I miss thinking about getting bigger and how I'll complain. I bought sport bras to wear to bed because my boobs hurt so much and now I look at them in the drawer and feel so much sadness. I'm still bleeding a bit but I'm scared to have sex again when it all ends. I feel like it's going to be awkward or even maybe sad? Is that stupid? I'm all over the place.

How is everybody else doing? ❤️

Hi! I know how you feel, albeit from a distance of 10 years (I’m 40).

Remember that the vast majority of women who have a miscarriage go on to have a healthy pregnancy. Be kind to yourself, have a glass of wine if you want one and look to the future.

Hi OP, I’m really sorry about your loss

I had a miscarriage earlier this month and understand how you feel. When I initially found out I was pregnant all I could think about was the foods I couldn’t eat. I was already planning to eat my (presumably larger) body weight in brie, pâté and crackers once I was allowed. My due date would of been early December so I was salivating over imaginary cheese boards full of forbidden cheeses for Christmas. I was also planning a belated 30th drink. And now I feel like an idiot planning for things I can freely do now I guess, although I haven’t yet.

I’m also inundated with sports bras. I mean I will get use out of them, I haven’t worn a proper bra in about five years, but they were my nice new pregnancy bras. They feel tainted now.

If you feel like you want a glass of wine on your 30th then go for it. You’ve had a tough time. Sometimes it’s the little things.

Fuck it, I’m adding some brie to my next shop. And maybe wine.

Hi I am so sorry for your loss.

I had a miscarriage about 6 weeks ago. I don’t think I gave myself time to deal with it when it happened and now we’ve come up to the date of what would have been our 12 weeks scan it’s got me like a ton of bricks.

I made sure I isolated completely protecting our little one and I fee angry it was all for nothing and heart broken I couldn’t protect it.

The biggest loss for me is all the dreams and plans we had made for our future. We had a miscarriage back in January and felt we’d been given a second chance only for it all to happen again. I don’t know how to move on. I totally understand your feelings of the guilt you are feeling about not wanting to have a wine etc I feel the same. But be kind to yourself it’s such an emotional time.

I am just taking it a day at a time. Sending lots of love and hugs 🤗