So desperate

[Bailey93]

Had a mc back in August and it was my due date last Sunday. I think I handled it pretty well at the time but since last week I have just felt this desperate sudden need for a baby. Or for the baby I lost I'm not sure. I was only 6 weeks and I'm not sure if I sound silly but I've never felt anything like it before. I also have worries that we might not be able to conceive again or that I can't carry full term.
It doesn't help being stuck in isolation. I try to keep my mind busy but I just can't budge it, I've even been waking up during the night. I spent all day yesterday crying and dp doesn't quite feel the same as me. I think he grieved a long time ago.
It doesn't help that he's not ready to try again, he's saying another year or two.
I spend hours of my day watching baby vlogs and reading forums. I feel like it's an obsession now . Just yearning for a baby so much. Wondering if anyone's been in a similar situation or can give me any advice please. Thank you in advance for reading x

Hi

Just wanted to offer you a virtual hug and my story for help. It's really tough but you get through it with time.

I had a miscarriage at 19 weeks in Nov and I have just passed my due date as well.
I also felt/feel a strong urge to have a baby straight away however, I think I need to give myself time to heal mentally and physically. My hubby feels he's ready again but I just can't do it, especially in these circumstances because I know we'll need specialist care.

Also have an aunt who went through something similar and she offered her advice to wait because she had a baby straight away and she said she was so mentally disturbed even though she had a new baby to obsess over. She says she didn't give herself enough time to heal 💔

I would say give yourself time and make sure you're in a better space to give your child a happy place 😊 and give yourself time to do more productive things (I know it's hard in this quarantine).

Hugs xx
H