Anybody else feel disgusted with their body?

[elc19]

I've always been a size 10-12 for as long as I can remember and although not perfect, didn't mind my body and had some kind of confidence.

Since miscarriage number 9, I've hated my body. When I found out I was pregnant again, I put on 2 stone in 2 months and can't shift it. My hips are wider, my thighs have stretch marks all over them especially at the top. My belly is wobbly now. I'm now a size 14-16 and so unhappy with myself. I can't seem to shift the weight since my ERPC, only started my period today after 8 weeks.

My DH and I joined our local health club and started swimming etc but because of corona virus it's understandably shut for the foreseeable.

I feel disgusting, can't face sex, don't even want to be naked in front of him anymore. I just hate myself and don't know what to do, it's making my depression and anxiety so much worse.

Just wondering if this is normal or if anyone has any healthy weight loss tips as feeling at my lowest and lost any confidence I once had.

Is it really weight loss tips you need? It sounds like you need to treat yourself with a greater degree of kindness and take time to grieve. You've had a really rough time of it haven't you.

I’m so so sorry for what you’re going through. I can’t imagine having to go through this once more, let alone 9 times in total.

I understand your feelings towards your body, really I do, but I feel like you just need to be kinder to yourself. You and your poor body have been through such a lot.

I had a late miscarriage almost 2 weeks ago and for now am just concentrating on trying to look after myself. Walks in the sunshine, food that makes me feel nourished and healthy, food that brings me comfort. You need to give yourself a break. Life is bloody tough at the moment, but especially when you’re in the depths of grief.

Sending big (unmumsnetty) hugs to you OP

I'm sorry to hear how you feel.
If it helps, I used to be an 8. But since having breast cancer last year, I've now gone right up to a 12. People say I look better, but I guess when you are used to being a certain size it is a downer.
Have you tried yoga? Yoga with aidrene on you tube is great.

Very similar. I've put on about half a stone since my miscarriage and feel horrible. I also have developed really bad cystic on my face and back since the loss. I kept hoping my hormones would settle and it would go away but so far it hasn't

I gained weight and felt horrible and emotional and empty and out of control in rewarding/punishing myself after ONE miscarriage - you’ve had nine I definitely think you should prioritise you mental health and being kind to yourself as much as you possibly can

Thank you all so much for your lovely comments.

I am going to do some light exercise at home until we can go back to the gym/swimming pool. I know I need to focus on my mental health.

I'm just being silly I think, after reflecting I have a lot to be thankful for right now including a supportive DH, a roof over my head and I've still got a job when so many others have lost theirs.

Keep safe all of you xx