I just need to vent 😔

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Currently down regulating for a frozen transfer.
I am so lucky to have a 4yr old, he is my world and im incredibly lucky to have him.

I had a miscarriage in November, my 4th in total and my colleague/friend is currently at her 20 week scan whilst we all wait at work to find out the gender.
I should be 4 weeks behind her.

I feel so sad, so jealous and ive been spending the day wishing it was my 20 week scan, in silence as nobody understands.
Ive been lucky enough to experience it before, which sometimes makes it harder as i remember the excitement of it all.

I hate that some 10 weeks later, im expected to have gotten over it...

I clearly havent have i....

I’m really sorry for your losses OP.
I do understand what you’re going through. I had a late miscarriage at the end of October and should be rapidly approaching my due date, instead I found out yesterday that my colleague is pregnant (with her 2nd, her 1st conceived and born while DH and I were TTC before IVF) and I’m so jealous and so sad and so angry that everyone has just moved on from my pregnancy and my loss. I know this is how life goes but it doesn’t make it any easier.
Thinking of you and hope the FET is a success.

Aw I can relate to this so much! I had a miscarriage three weeks ago and my colleague has just found out the gender of her baby. I think it is normal to go through these emotions it doesnt necessarily mean you arent over it (which I dont think its something you will fully get over anyways) I think it's just a sad reminder of what would be happening to you if you hadnt had a miscarriage. The worse thing for me is that I didnt tell anyone in work so try to put a brave face on and seem excited etc which I am for her but also sad that I dont get to experience that....I also have a little boy that is the main reason I am coping, as I have to! Big hugs to you and I hope you are okay as can be .