Hi guys
I'm just looking for some advice. I suffered my 4th loss at 15 weeks august last year. I was absolutely devastated and was off work for 10 weeks. I have a history of low mood and I was in a very dark place. I return to work and all was well.
Over new year I experienced my 5th loss. It was early but still left me very low. I returned to work for 3 days following the christmas break and explained the situation to my boss. She appeared understanding. I then attended my gp and was signed off for 2 weeks and given anti depressants.
That sick line runs out this week, however I am back at gp in a few days to get s new line.
I spoke to my boss today and she was understanding and explained that I have to look after me. As the call was ending she advised me that HR are probably going to contact me to arrange a meeting and not to worry about it.
Since the call I have been very worried. What are they going to say? I work for a local authority and miscarriages to not count as 'sick leave' and do not trigger official sickness proceedings.
I'm now worried they think I am bring dramatic/over exaggerating my feelings of grief and feelings of being an utter failure.
It doesn't help that the baby lost in August would've been due this week.
Has anyone experienced similar? The logical part of my brain knows they cant fire me but in my emotional stressed out state, my mind is running away with itself.
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