Hello. I've just had my 7th miscarriage. All previous went to 6/7 weeks, but this last one got to 10 weeks and was the first time we saw a heartbeat. I had to have a d&c and I've apparently got 'retained products', just to add to the grief. To cut it short, I've been investigated and we have never had a reason, until recently. On an MRI it showed that I might have a uterus abnormality. I haven't got a bicornuate or septate uterus, but I might have something else which has been difficult to see on a scan, which they are still investigating. I'll hopefully have a camera put up there to have a look around which can tell us a bit more. I feel like our hope is fading.
I'm 39 and my partner is 33. We've been together 7 years and planning to get married later on in the year. I feel utterly gutted after finding out I may never be able to carry a baby. My partner and I both desperately want children. We've been through so many losses and a failed IVF round seem to have disappointment after disappointment.
I'm not even sure why I'm posting. I feel lost and it's affecting me today more than ever. I just want to crawl into a hole and stay there. I always thought we'd get there in the end, but as I'm getting older I feel time is running out. I also feel the guilt of not being able to give my partner a child. Why should he stay with me. I'm sorry. thanks for listening x