Fed up, desperate, when does the feeling end?

[ttc2018andbeyond]

I had a mmc in April and have been ttc ever since with no luck :( it took me almost a year first time round.

The longer time goes on the more desperate I feel to conceive again, it just feels so unfair :(. I don't know how to stop the longing, it consumes me.

Had tests and I'm 'normal' I had Councelling but they just minimised my mmc and I've had acupuncture and I just feel like they are chatting crap too.

I'm so sorry for your loss @ttc2018andbeyond. I miscarried in April after over a year ttc. I did conceive quickly after that (had the hsg test in June so think it was related to that) but I miscarried again in September.

I'm under a fertility clinic as we're 2 years + ttc now and I've been seen by the recurrent miscarriage clinic.

I've had 4 cycles off ttc to try to recover. I also had a hysteroscopy and polyp removed. This is my first cycle ttc again and I'm driving myself insane. I thought not being able to try was so hard, it felt like life stood still, but now we have been ttc again and my af is due next week, I've become obsessed.

I'm seeing a therapist (like you, my counsellor wasn't great) but having trauma therapy now, was referred through work, and she's helping me a bit.

Randomly, one thing that helped before Christmas was doing a really hard jigsaw. I've finished it now, so it's on my list to get a new one. It stopped me wasting time googling.

I'm on a really supportive ttc after pregnancy loss group on the conception board - it's called the ttc penguin huddle, come and join us there xx