Hi, just need to write it down to get it out of my system. Hiding in the bathroom crying because I should have a little 1.5 month old having their first Christmas along with my older two. But I don’t. Feel like my oldest is disappointed with her gifts and feel like a rubbish mother. Haven’t even started cooking yet. I need to pull myself together. Hope everyone is having a nice day....I really need to cop on and get moving.