We found out almost three weeks ago at 8+4 that our baby had no heartbeat. Development had stopped at 6+6.
Twelve days later I chose to take the tablets to induce a miscarriage. I live in Ireland so the process here is that you take 6 tablets over 6 hours. I took the last 2 tablets at 1am, I woke at 6am to find myself saturated in blood. Thankfully that was the worst of the bleeding over and the worst of the pains. Over the next few days I wore two pads most of the time.
Two days ago the bleeding slowed to almost a stop. However I didn’t feel like I had passed everything. Yesterday morning I had a vaginal scan and it was found that there was still a fair bit of blood high up. They gave me two options; 1. to take a single tablet each day for the next five days or 2. to have an ERPC. I have elected to go for the ERPC. That is due to happen on Monday morning. I’m hoping it won’t be awful and I’m hoping I’ll be able to go back to work on Wednesday or Thursday. I’ve been off all this week already and I feel bad taking so much time off, although my employer has been very understanding.
I’ve been in so much pain today, I presume it’s because of the vaginal scan that I had. Every cough, sneeze, pee, wind and bowl movement hurts.
I’m so nervous about the surgery. My partner won’t be able to come to the hospital with me but he’ll be there in the afternoon. I’ve been told to be there at 8am with my surgery happening at 9am. However if there are emergencies that will be pushed back. I’ve been told that I’ll need to stay at the hospital for 6-8 hours post surgery and to be prepared to stay overnight.
This is our second miscarriage. We had only known for 5 days at the end of August when I started bleeding, thankfully that miscarriage was physically an easy process and I didn’t need any interventions. We were delighted to find out that I was pregnant again at the end of October. I’m just turned 41 and feel that the tide is against me. The registrar in the hospital yesterday asked me what number pregnancy this was for me and I was shocked to hear myself say 4. I have 2 children.
We have told very few about the losses as there are certain people I don’t want knowing and unfortunately some people can’t be trusted. It’s hard not having anybody really to talk to.
It’s a difficult road that so many have travelled, I never realised how difficult until it happened to me. Hugs to all those on this path.