Miscarriage - feeling overwhelmed

[Hyacinth23]

I had a miscarriage at 11weeks. Initially I was ok emotionally. Now it's nearly 5 weeks later and I'm not ok at all.

I can't try again. My job contract is renewed annually and if I were to get pregnant again now it's too late in the contract, I might not have a job to come back to by the time I go on maternity leave. That's exacerbating the hurt.

I'm in a city in the North for work but my friends are down South. We moved 3yrs ago but I never settled. Don't have time outside work to make a new support network. I thought going on mat leave I would meet other women around my age, now that's not going to happen.

I have a terrible relationship with my parents. They both suffer from mental health issues. I was looking forward to the baby as a way of healing some of those wounds, starting a family where I don't have one now.

All that on top of the grief I feel about the baby is getting too much.

I didnt want to read and not reply although im not sure anything i will say will help.

Im really sorry for your loss. Its the most horrendous thing emotionally/physically.

We sound very similar that you were looking ahead and things had happened at what you thought was a good time.

I know its early but you will go on to have a successful pregnacy and those wounds and healing will happen but just not yet, but they will. Have faith.

Xxx