After a traumatic labour with my son due to placental abruption, and putting off TTC again because of being scared, our first month of trying for our second resulted in an ectopic and surgery to remove both our baby and my left tube. We waited for six months to gather our thoughts and get back to normality. I then fell pregnant first month of trying again and got a positive test early this week. Today I have had orangey pink blood/discharge and have just done another test which is negative. The blood seems to turning more pinky red now too 
I had to leave work which was embarrassing as I'd not told anyone I was pregnant again since it's so early (and had time off in May for the ectopic!).
The due date for our second baby is approaching and by chance our six week scan for this one was scheduled for the same day. I naively thought what a lovely way to look at the date positively.
It has to be a chemical really, hasn't it? Midwife has said to leave it for a week and test again 
seems I have no problems getting pregnant just struggle to do the whole safe delivery of a baby thing. I don't see how this could have a happy ending now.
Sorry for the self indulgence, I know this board is used by ladies who have experienced far worse than me, just no one to talk to about it in real life.