I’m 21- both myself and husband to be turning 22 soon and getting wed June 2020.
A little over 3 months ago I had a medically managed miscarriage at 8-9 weeks.
Few questions;
We buried our little angel baby in a beautiful flower bed along with my grandmothers ashes overlooking our dressage arena and stables. Having a place to grieve is most certainly helping. However i have started having anxiety attacks, tight/heavy chest, rapid breathing feeling generally uneasy- all that settles me is being close to our baby- I work 30 miles away (nightshift) so I can’t come back to baby, any tips? I am currently seeing GP and Perinatal team about depression and PTSD since- they are aware of my symptoms and I’m also on antidepressants I have had previously.
I feel a sense of guilt over it all.
All of my emotions have been made worse due to the fact a change in my medical circumstances (finally due to have treatment for unrelated issues- but it’s; 3 years of treatment, it cannot be postponed and any pregnancy would cause treatment to cease and become ineffective) I feel as though everything has turned against us recently. I would never wish to have a child to replace the so very beautiful and delicate bub I gave birth too those short months back, I do feel now if the right time for us as a couple. I’m most certainly struggling with the thought of 3 years childless, especially after the sheer joy and excitement of finding out about the pregnancy last time.
Any advice on how to move forward would be greatly appreciated
Thanks
H x