1st mmc

[TheFoz]

I had a mc in August at 5+4, bled a for a few days, it was pretty much just like a period. We found out I was pregnant at the end of October, went for a scan two days ago when I should have been 8+4 to be told that there was no heartbeat. The baby had stopped developing at 6+6.
Today I should be 8+6 and nothing is happening. My pregnancy symptoms are all but gone. We are heartbroken. I’m 41, both my partner and I have children from previous partners, this would be our first together.
I want the loss to happen but at the same time I don’t. I don’t want to let go of the pregnancy and I’m also scared of what the loss will be like. I’m back again for another scan next Wednesday and I will likely opt to take the tablets if there has been no movement between now and then.
This is such a lonely place to be as we have told very few people.

I'm so sorry for your loss

I've had a couple of mmc, the first time I opted for a D&C (now called an ERPC) but the second time I started bleeding naturally but would have gone for tablets if required.

I was quite open with people about it all, but I can understand if you don't feel like you can talk about it. It might help you though if you confide in a few close friends or relatives - something I learned from my own miscarriages (4 in total) is that lots of people have their own experience of it, and will understand what you're going through. It can help ease the pain a bit.

Anyway, be kind to yourself, take some time off to grieve - it's ok to feel sad.