Feeling emotional - first pregnancy & miscarriage

[hmfair54]

Hello folks,
I'm not too sure why I'm making this post other than that I'm feeling extremely emotional at the moment and need somewhere to vent.
Back in September I lost my first pregnancy at 5/6 weeks and at the time I wasn't sure how to feel - I had only found out 5 days before I started to bleed so everything was a bit of a whirlwind of emotion.
Truthfully, I didn't feel much for the baby I had lost (it was an unplanned pregnancy) and just wanted to get on with my life rather than dwell on what could have been.
But now, as I'm approaching the time I would have found out the gender of the baby, I feel absolutely overwhelmed ☹️ it's like my emotions have finally caught up with me.
I'm dreading May because I know it will be so hard knowing we could've had a little baby with us by then.
What do you ladies do to cope with the pregnancy/baby milestones after a miscarriage?

I'm very sorry for your loss. I don't know what the answer is as I am really struggling with this too, but didn't want to read and run. I had a missed miscarriage discovered at my 13 week scan in September. At the worst times I've just been taking it hour by hour - literally only allowing myself to think about what I need to do for the next hour, then the next hour after that, then the next hour after that. Also planning nice things to look forward to around key milestones. It would have been my 20 week scan last month, and I planned a nice meal out with my partner and a visit to a friend to try and keep my mind off it. I'm not sure if this applies to you, but really focusing on getting my body healthy and hopefully ready for another pregnancy is helping me a bit - going to the gym, eating healthy meals, getting plenty of sleep, etc.

Hugs - it is so, so hard x