Hi
Right now I'm going through my third miscarriage this year I'm 27
I've never had a child. My husband and I started trying in March. It seems I can get pregnant easily but keeping the baby past week 5 my body just can't do it.
It's the same symptoms again, cramps, brown spotting which slowly becomes more over a week and then a day of terrible cramps and bleeding. Each time I suddenly just feel no longer pregnant right before the spotting, I can't explain the feeling. My breasts still are really sore which is a horrid reminder of the fact I had a baby and no longer do and they take about a week to stop being painful.
I'm so worried I can't be a mum. We are looking at adoption as we always agreed we would, my husband is adopted and we want to support and love a child already living in this world. However, I would like, even just one child that grows in me and is a part of me and him. I feel like I'm not a woman if I can't carry a child and people keep saying that's a silly thing to say which makes no difference to how I feel, but I just don't feel like a woman anymore.
Right now I guess I could really do with hearing some positive stories about the difficulty of pregnancy, it's breaking my heart and making me terribly bitter to those who have kids which is completely not their fault and I hate that I'm jealous it's not who I am.
Has anyone else gone or going through this too? Xx