DH and I were trying to conceive for a few months before our pregnancy. When I found out I was filled with many emotions that ended in such happiness. Weeks went by and I was getting more and more excited and used to knowing I had a child inside. Growing closer to the unborn child daily. This was my first pregnancy. Yet, tuesdayday before my first appointment (10 week appointment on friday Sep 6th) I noticed bleeding I was concerned about. I went to my OB the next day and was told my child had no heartbeat and passed away about a week beforehand due to the size of the fetus. My husband and I were devastated but I feel it took me much longer to get over than he did. It was the hardest thing we've ever dealt with. But, when it came to making the decision of if I would take the medication or go through with the d and c, I chose to go with the medication and still needed the d and c anyway. That was extremely difficult on me also, I wanted to start over and I was ready to be done bleeding after 3 weeks of bleeding the God awful raunchy stench of blood. After the d and c, I bled a little more for about 2 days so I was happy. But now, ive had my first period afterwards. I was hopeful to conceive beforehand but didn't, and now I'm hopeful that I've conceived before my next period which is in 4 days, I would take a pregnancy test but, I don't want to spend the when I can just wait so hopefully, this will be baby number 2. I definitely will count my miscarriage as baby 1, I still honor and cherish and miss my first baby. I'm not angry at the Lord. I'm just sad I won't be able to hold or raise or touch or see my child even for the first time. I hope all of you going through your miscarriages are coping ok, it wasn't and still isn't very easy for me to talk about but I have moved on from the experience and it is getting easier to talk about. Keep your chin up, and just remember your child is watching over you at all times and they will always be a part of you.