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GoldLeafTree · 29/10/2019 16:19

Hello,

I posted on this board recently as I was told I was having an ectopic pregnancy, I had a laparoscopy and it turned out there wasn't an ectopic. Whilst recovering I had another scan which showed a 12mm sac which was empty and then four days later ( last Wednesday) another scan showed an empty 18mm sac.

I was given a leaflet about medical management of a miscarriage and sent home and told to come back for another scan (tomorrow) when I'll be exactly 7 weeks. I also have an appointment booked for Thursday morning to take the medication to induce a miscarriage. I've been trying to spend the past week being hopeful and optimistic, my HCG was 72,000 yesterday and has been rising the right amount every 48 hours and I've been reading so many stories online of women who had an empty sac one week and a feotus with a heartbeat at the next scan. I've been clinging on to these stories but this afternoon it's hit me that there won't be a heartbeat tomorrow.

At my last scan I was 6 weeks with a HCG level of 22,000 and the sac was completely empty and they told me they should've seen something and they think its a blighted ovum which they can officially diagnose after tomorrow's scan.

I feel really numb and empty inside and haven't left my bed today. I've struggled with depression for a while and have been managing really well for the past year but it's as if it's suddenly come back.

I don't have any friends and my DP is so upset so I don't feel like I have anybody to talk to so I hope it's okay that I ramble on here. I feel completely exhausted from being told it's ectopic, having an operation and then waking up to be told it's not ectopic, a scan which showed an empty sac but told that was normal for so early so I got excited again, then another scan where I'm told I'm likely to miscarry.

I'm not sure why I posted really I just wanted somebody here to talk to after my scan tomorrow. Thank you

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GoldLeafTree · 29/10/2019 16:20

Sorry, this has paragraphs when I typed it out

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dottyp0104 · 29/10/2019 16:42

Hi, sorry you are going through this. I am in asimilar boat. I was at A&E on Sun night with right sided abdo pain. I had thought it was ectopic. I thought I was about 6 weeks. I have had brown discharge for weeks.
Bloods taken and seem at a normal range for this period of time but my scan showed nothing. I have no more pain and tolerated a lot of hunting in my scan which they said would have been painful if was ectopic.
I have to go back tomorrow for more bloods. I have no idea what to think. Maybe i am too early for it to show up on scan? I have no idea but i can appreciate how you feel. Do you have someone to take with you?

JenniferM1989 · 29/10/2019 18:17

Do you get regular periods and your last period was 7 weeks a go? Making you around 5 weeks gestation?

GoldLeafTree · 29/10/2019 18:33

@JenniferM1989 yes that's exactly right, the first day of my last period was 7 weeks ago from tomorrow

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GoldLeafTree · 29/10/2019 18:36

@dottyp0104 how horrible for you, was there nothing seen in the scan at all? I had the same, nothing seen whatsoever and a scan a couple of days later showed a sac. Fingers crossed everything's okay for you Flowers it's horrible not being able to do anything other than wait and see isn't it?

I'm going to bring DP tomorrow, I usually make him wait in the waiting room but I regretted that last time so I'll bring him in tomorrow

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dottyp0104 · 29/10/2019 20:12

Hope all goes okay tomorrow @GoldLeafTree
I'm hoping to find something tomorrow, ag the moment it is a pregnancy of unknown origin - so at this moment I just want to know its not where it shouldn't be. The internet is definately not your friend in these circumstsnces - but I can't help looking.

Think of you xx

Rainey910 · 31/10/2019 07:44

@GoldLeafTree I remember you from another post and I am so sorry you’re going through this. It’s just horrible and unfair. I don’t have much advice other than you must remember that it won’t hurt this much forever and over time the sadness does become more bearable and you will feel positive again. Look after yourself and just make sure you and DP are there for each other.

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