So anxious in public

[Sussexbythesea84]

Today is the first day I’ve been out the house since we were told I had miscarried.

I feel so anxious and in turn I feel like I’m being such a bitch and can’t look people in the eye. I’ve no idea why I feel like this.

I’m due to go back to work next week and the thought of it makes me feel sick.

I’m in Costa, crying. Literally crying into my coffee and wishing that this was a decaf and that my boobs would hurt and that life could go back to the happy bubble I was in last Wednesday. Life is just shit, if it wasn’t for my little girl I’m not sure what state I would be in. I’m always the one with the ‘brace face’ or who is ‘ tough as old boots’ but really I’m fragile and I need to talk.

I'm really sorry about your baby @Sussexbythesea84. I remember feeling exactly the same when I first miscarried ❤️ the grief was overwhelming at times. It will get better, I promise.

I'm currently off work with my second mc and debating whether to return to work next week. I went back too soon with my first. If you need more time then please take it. Try to rest and look after yourself ❤️

I'm here if you need to talk xx

I understand how you must be feeling. I thought I was 11weeks and had 2 very small bleeds but went to get checked and a scan shows I’m about 6weeks. I have to go back for a rescan to check growth but I know it’s bad news due to knowing dates.

My partner was off with me Monday and Tuesday but I’ve sent him back to work today. There’s so many things I should try to do but literally spent whole day on sofa watching tv or looking on my phone. I think sometimes we need to just take one day at a time and think about ourselves. Would you feel better having another week off? If so do it as work will just have to cope and you need to do what is best for you. This has been the most sad time of my life but I think the way forward is to acknowledge it and try to plan something nice to look forward to. Is there something nice you can plan to do with your daughter in a few weeks/months?

I really hope things get better for you

OP, I'm so sorry ❤️ I felt exactly the same some time after my MC, I was anxious of being in public places. Took 2.5 weeks off work. Thought things would never be OK. There's nothing much I can tell you to make things better right now, but please know that people around you are likely to be very supportive if you open up about how you're feeling, and if you need to cry in public, cry. I did a few times on the train. Strangers were also very kind. Things will get better in time, even if you don't feel like they will right now. Lots of us on here have been through the same and came out the other end, I am sure you will too. Just don't push or pressurise yourself now, do whatever you think will be best for you. Sending you lots of love ❤️ xxx

Thank you girls.xxx