Feeling so lost and down.

[mybestfriend123]

Myself and my partner started trying to conceive almost 2 years ago now.. I mean this is when we started tracking every month etc.

Before then we let " nature take its course" for a year.

So almost 3 years of trying, 3 miscarriages & ectopic pregnancy. Still no answers and now my SIL is due her baby in the next couple of weeks.

Is it normal to feel this envious?

I want nothing more than a baby, a family of my own. I'm finding today extremely difficult and I have no idea why.

Just sat wondering how I'm going to get through the day.

I've had all the tests under the NHS, so now we are having to pay to go private. We know it's going to cost us a fortune but I feel like I just need answers .. or a crystal ball to tell me if we should just give up or not.

I so badly want to be one of those women who post on here to give other ladies hope, but I feel like that will never be me. I'll be the lady who never has a child 😢

No experience in this area but will.private tests show anything different? Would it be better to save the money for IVF or another treatment. It is understandable that you feel envious of other people easily having children. Try not to.lose hope. There are many positive stories on Mumsnet .

@sandgrown

Hiyah,

Yes they check for loads more than the NHS. NHS tests are very very basic.

I wouldn't need IVF, I don't have a problem falling pregnant, it's staying pregnant unfortunately.

I know, it's so much easier said than done.

Sorry I did not realise . Hope they find a solution for you . Wishing you lots of luck xx