Early first MMiscarriage

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I would be 7+3 but I can't believe at this point that I have a viable pregnancy at all. I'm posting here in case it helps someone else and I plan to come back if that feels right and detail my experience for the same reason.

After a very strong positive result from a test I never really had strong symptoms. I had an abortion at 7 weeks 6 years ago and my symptoms were aweful. I clearly remember wrestling myself out of bed and being late or missing work due to fighting sickness and fatigue.

Based on that experience, there was already a disconnect that this time was so drastically different.

Any symptoms I had stopped over a week ago and gradually I've been feeling more and more myself.

I had had some very slight difficulty around eating and feeling nauseated. Tender breasts. Wind. Constipation. (All mostly gone now and easing up all the time)

I had some light period style cramps intermittently on both sides and also had a very faint pinkish bleed over 3 weeks ago after sex which is similar to mid cycle bleeding I've had previously (possibly just small burst cyst)

The week before last I passed a small dark red clot the size of a 5p and had some brown discharge while walking.

I now have light period type cramps though rarely and also a slight tightness across the top of my tummy.

I am 90% sure I'm no longer pregnant but am a bit stuck in limbo land as I can't confirm either way and do not want to go to the Dr. I plan to just let my body do what it's going to do naturally.

Until it does that, purely as insurance, I plan to continue to treat my body as if it is pregnant. Annoyingly I accept I need to wait for my body to get on with this and that it could be weeks. Also annoyingly, if I was 100% certain I could start giving myself herbal support for miscarriage. Raspberry leaf tea etc. So that part is frustrating.

Found an old ovulation test yesterday in the back of a cupboard and thought might as well. Took it to check for hCG which is still showing very strong so think it'll be a while yet..

Obviously disapointed but psychologically feel very philosophical about it all. Our bodies are so complicated as women, who knows what mine is learning from this whole process (another reason I want an uninterupted natural miscarriage) I'm going to keep walking each day to try and keep things moving.

Coming back to give an update but it's not at all the update I thought I'd be giving.

Continued to wait for things to move forward naturally and was feeling more and more like my old self.

Thought I'd take advantage of hormone levels dropping so on 16/ 08 we went out in the evening to see some music and take our minds off things.

Had a feeling of pressure and seeping, went to the loo and released a huge amount of bright red very liquid blood. Looked like a pint glass worth but was probably a lot less as blood always looks loads. So maybe half a pint.

I came back and declared "we need to leave, it's started, this is it." We rushed home, I'd been sleeping on plastic sheeting and absorbant pads in case it happened in the night and we got hold of a birthing ball and tens machine, floradix, garden kneeling pad all the stuff mentioned here as I anticipated it could be very painful.

I waited at home for 2 weeks for bleeding to start in earnest! nothing! and was well prepared that going the natural route could mean double that time again. We decided we'd only seek medical help if there were signs something was wrong with me.

For some reason never got in touch with the midwife to cancel my first ante natal appoint. Yesterday was the day of the appointment and went anyway as still no definitive bleed. Told her I'm certain I've had a missed miscarriage, was given good advice by midwife and told to go to hospital for a scan.

She told me to tell a fib and say about the bleed also to say that I'd been having both severe pain and heavy bleeding that was heavier than a period.

Went early this morning. Have been having cramps and back pain in the night. Had an internal scan which found I'm 10 +4 and all fine with no signs of any further blood so must have passed it all. I was just gobsmacked, can't believe it. It's going to take some time to get my head around.

Posting this in case it's still helpful and theres someone out there absolutely convinced like me they've definately miscarried and confirmed that for themselves due to a bleed. They aren't just being kind when they say every pregnancy is different and also that a bleed is inconclusive. They mentioned the bleed could have been subchrionic haemotoma or twin pregnancy where one was lost and as far as loosing my symptoms that I've possibly just been lucky so far.

Hi,

Thank you for sharing this it's really interesting and congratulations!

Question - did you carry on taking pregnancy tests during that time?

Hello, thankyou. Good, I'm glad and thought it may still useful even if that's not in the way I thought it would be!

No I didn't and the reason I didn't was that I read that if there is any tissue you'll still be getting positives anyway.

I was so certain it was a miscarriage that I saw no point in tracking levels based on if the line on a pregnancy test was getting lighter.

I think I took one strip test last week as my husband was interested to see what it would look like out of curiosity and it just showed a positive. The positive was a dark line but I didn't feel able to infer anything from that.