BARE WITH ME. Please don't judge me. On Thursday evening I used miscarriage pills provided by the doctor, at the hospital as I went for my 12 week scan and they diagnosed missed miscarriage. (Absolutely devastating but that's another story)
Anyway, I took the pills and have had nothing but hideous pain and anxiety on top ever since! I called the hospital and the want me to wait a further 5 days for an appointment and have confirmed the pills failed for me so u need a second dose.
I just can't cope and I feel like a walking tomb knowing my baby passed inside of me. I just want to grieve and I can't right now because of this. I've been trying to induce the miscarriage which sounds awful I know, by using lavender oil just dabbed on my pillows and drinking very strong raspberry tea.
I just feel heartbroken and want this over with. I cannot wait for the second dose and being the small percentage of woman they didn't work for has frustrated me. I cannot do a D&C whilst awake I would be traumatised and I'm so alone.
Thank you for your patience and please try to understand my thought process of trying to get this to happen for me