Still really struggling months after mmc

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I didn't really know where to turn to, i think i just need to let some things out. 😭

I had a mmc earlier this year it was the worst time of my life, tonight im really struggling more than ever. My friend just found out she is pregnant and doesn't even want another child and is considering every option going this is the sexond friend in the last few months yet im sat here struggling to conceive at all and they want my support to help them get through an abortion!!

Ive never come to terms with loosing my baby i dont think and ive been trying to conceive since but every month that passes now i loose faith a little bit more every time. Nobody seems to understand why i feel the way i do after so long has passed but soon i would be due and that feeling just kills me every day i get closer to it.

@culllllll hey don't say sorry we are here for you so let it out🙂. Do you think there would be any future as in relationship wise for you and your friend or is that not what you want? I understand how traumatic it was to go through I had the worst time with mine too. I also saw the baby aswell it's awful. I actually kept my babies remains as weird as that may sound but we had a little cremation for it and I buried the ashes at my mums grave, my mum passed away 5 years ago, and it just felt like the right thing for me to do. it was devastating. It's good you have your mum there for support❤️, I'm sure nobody is gossiping about you,why would they? I do get the panic attacks though I have suffered a lot with them in the past it's horrible, I've had really bad anxiety since this has happened, have you thought about seeing a counsellor to help? Try not to worry too much about the near future, just concentrate on getting yourself better and if it's not gonna happen with your friend as in relationship I'm sure you will definitely meet someone else and be able to try again when your ready. I know how hard it is though when you realise you want a baby and then lose it. I'm 33, 34 this year and we tried for ages and I keep thinking I'm getting old and is it ever going to happen coz I'd love to have more than 1, but trying to be positive. I'm doing ok, i think my first period started yesterday which was mixed emotions but it seems to have slowed down now not like a normal period so abit confused, other than that just trying to get my head around it all as I imagine you are too. Stay strong 💐 xx