I really want to share my story so far in the hope of feeling positive by chatting to others that have experienced the same.
This was my first pregnancy so my Husband and I were beyond excited for the future. We could not believe our luck when I fell pregnant straight away from when we decided to start trying. We were thrilled and already had baby names decided. I think we just never thought miscarriage would happen to us. I didn't realise just how common miscarriage actually was because no one talks about it.
On 24/07/19 we went for a private scan which should have been when I was 9.5 weeks pregnant. We were excited to be able to share our news with my husband's parents who were visiting over the weekend. Unfortunately, the sonographer showed a scan with no baby and only the pregnancy sac left measuring about 6 weeks. She said this was called a missed miscarriage. Obviously, although we remained calm, inside I was so shocked. How could I have miscarried when I'd had no symptoms of bleeding or pain? That evening I cried in disbelief with my husband trying to comfort me as much as possible even though I knew he was devastated.
The following day we were at our local EPAU where they did another ultrasound and confirmed the findings of the private centre. I decided that day I'd had enough of the nausea I was experiencing and opted for medical management. I used the vaginal pessaries they gave me and I went home after half an hour or so. I had heavy bleeding that evening and passed clots etc. That was the Thursday. Over the weekend my in laws arrived and by this time I only had what could be described as normal period type blood flow for me so we were out and about doing things and I felt positive it would be over very soon. Come Monday afternoon I was bleeding heavily again and waited for a few hours and it subsided. Again come Tues afternoon the heavy bleeding and clots were back so I called the EPAU. They called me back to ask me to head straight to my gynae ward. Once there I had a speculum inserted and they removed some pregnancy tissue from my cervix area. They wanted to keep me overnight and ran blood tests. Again the bleeding subsided overnight and in the morning they sent me for an ultrasound. The Sonographer told me some pregnancy tissue or a clot was left in the uterus but that the pregnancy sac had gone. Went back to the ward and the doctor said she was confident I would pass this myself or my body would absorb it. She said my bloods were fine and sent me home. She said if my bleeding was heavy again to call back and that as scheduled i should do my pregnancy test when the EPAU told me (3 weeks post medical management).
Got home from the ward and yet again bleeding heavily. Waited and it passed again to light in the evening and overnight. Nurse from the EPAU called this morning and we discussed everything and she advised if the heavy bleeding happens today I must call the ward.
So now a waiting game. I'm feeling so disheartened and in my head all I can think is it's not going to work and I'll need surgery. Something which terrifies me.
Sorry it's a long post but I want to see if anybody else had/ has similar problems and that if there is light at the end of the tunnel.
Thanks for reading!