Four weeks ago I miscarried at 7 weeks. Thankfully it wasn’t physically too traumatic and my body seems to have recovered well from it. Emotionally however I’m struggling. My partner’s way of dealing with it is to just pretend it didn’t happen which is the complete opposite of how I’m dealing with it. Luckily my mum has been a massive support for me over the last month. I now have to face the reality that we are looking after my 4 year old step son for the next six weeks while his mum works 5 days a work. (My partner doesn’t work due to a stroke, and I work self-employed from home) I absolutely love having SS here abe spending time with him, but it’s just hit me that I’ve got to put on my usual happy personality while silently hurting so much inside. I know there will be a fair bit of time when I’ll have to work and I can shit myself away and focus on that, but there’s a couple of days my partner has hospital appointments/tests so it will be just me and SS for most of the day. I feel awful for asking this, but how do I hide my pain of losing our child while watching my partner be the amazing dad he is to his son?
Also I apologise for rambling on 💁🏼♀️