So i me and my other half had been trying for a baby from February. I lost my granny who was more like a 2nd mummy rather than just a grandparent she was 82 and had cancer. Her death although was expectes but it still hurt like hell. The day after her funeral i found out i was pregnant. I literally cried so hard and was so fuckin happy. Then a few weeks later. Just last week i miscarried my baby. I was 9 weeks. I literally cant take it. I have a 5 y/o son and i love him so much. But i cant help feel guilty for my baby who i lost, i loved that little baby from the moment i found out even to now. I dont know how to cope with this. I just cant concentrate on anything. I went back to work literally a week later. All im seeing in my work is pregnant women and i cant help but get jealous and then feel guilty because i dont know thier story for all i know they are carrying thier baby after 1 or 6 miscarriages before they finally got pregnant. Or women who used ivf to get pregnant. But all i see is the bump i will never get to carry as i lost my baby. What do i do. How do i go on 