Things are getting harder, not easier...

[sophied1983]

I had a miscarriage in early March.

I thought I'd find things a bit easier by now, but if anything, am more tearful.

Find my periods increasingly tough to deal with and my body infuriates me - long irregular cycle and on day 7 of my current period!

Could do with someone to talk to who is in the same boat.

I have some good and then some bad days which take me by surprise and I feel totally shit. I had my first MC in February then another in June (both IVF). I really don't know when this will pass although I do try to enjoy the good days. So sorry you're going through this, it's awful.

I'm so sorry @LillyLeaf. I saw a pal on Fri who has an eight month old, and seeing how my daughter was with her has set me off all over again thinking about what could have been. Feeling sad for her and what she has missed out on.

It must be even harder when it's IVF as there's so much hope. To have that crushed :(

I feel close to tears almost all the time.

I'm sorry to hear about both of your losses. I haven't had any miscarriages, but have had 3 failed IVF cycles so to a small extent I understand the grief (although I am not comparing my grief to yours).

One thing I have found which has helped more than anything is hypnotherapy. If you've never tried it, it's not at all "woo" - I'm not into anything like that - but it has helped me process my grief and negative emotions.

If you're in the south west I'd be happy to recommend my therapist.

Sending hugs x

I have started to feel better recently but like @LillyLeaf the bad days take me by surprise, I think because they are such a contrast and I think I’m getting better and maybe they are worse than when everything was raw.

My periods do me in though. I cannot cope with them, the first day I’m an emotional wreck, I think because really I shouldn’t be having them. And then the actual blood frightens me. They are also worse, longer and more painful and the run up seems to be a bit more intense in terms of pms and cramps.

I had a thought today while walking down the street that my first due date is in a month. I had a rush of emotions that took me by surprise and had tears in my eyes and had to take a few deep breaths. It can happen anytime.

I'm pleased it's not just me, but also sad for you ladies feeling like this.

My mum asked on Thursday whether I ever think about the fact I'd be seven months pregnant????? Ermmmmm.

Am thinking about getting some counselling. Maybe that will help.

My due date was the day after my daughter's birthday - I hope it doesn't taint that.