You never forget

[Chocolate35]

There are two days of the year that are particularly hard; the “anniversary” of the day I lost my baby and the day he would have been born. Today is the first one. I’ve kept it together all day, now I’m remembering like it was yesterday. My baby boy gained his wings nearly 10 years ago today. His memory box faces my bed and I still say goodnight to him every night.
My friend told me that you never get over a mc, you just learn to live with it.

Yeah, I always think about my lost little one on the anniversary of her going & on her due date. I so wish I had her, now... I never had a child.

I’m enjoying my life, and we’re happily married, luckily. But it could have been so different... Hits me like a sledgehammer sometimes.

That’s exactly it, I’m happily married with two children now.... but there’s always the “what if?”. There’s always that one missing that you can’t help wonder what they would have looked like, what their personality would be. I never got to see him but still miss him.

I’ve miscarried 5 times in very different circumstances and each one has their story. It never leaves you just learn to live with it. That part is true.