Desperation

[Megabustravelling]

Hello
I had a miscarriage back in April and I just feel awful inside. I am literally desperate to be pregnant again and all I can feel inside is genuine longing and sadness that I'm not. I just took a test and got a bfn, due af on Sunday. I have spent a bit of time every day for the last week just sobbing because of the situation. I am having trouble getting to sleep at night and I feel so much anger and despair. I just don't know what to do. 😭😭

@MrsMGE It's so strange you should say that, I'm so scarred something will happen to my cat, if she's out for too long I've been shouting her to come inside. I think it's just a constant anxious feeling.

That’s understandable to feel like that you have to think rationally. Need to concentrate on yourself. We’ve had a traumatic event happen, we have lost our baby’s and that’s bad enough to deal with without thinking of other things. X

@LillyLeaf @JessyClaireS I know, thank you for your replies. We should try and explain to ourselves that more bad things are unlikely to happen and in any event we can't think about them now cause it makes the anxiety even worse. This whole experience has drained my body, mind and soul to be honest. I really don't think people who haven't been through it can imagine just in how many ways it affects you. How do you you feel it's affected you? Don't need to answer if you don't feel like it, and of course no judgement whatsoever ❤️X

@LillyLeaf I'm also thinking my cat might die soon, my dog had a bad tummy and in my head he was also nearly dead, and now I'm dreading Friday with my hubby working away and having a long drive, I'm anxious he'll end up in a car crash 😔 I mean for God's sake... I only now realise I'm torturing myself after I wrote it down and re-read it! Anxiety is horrible X

And another bad day for me... is this ever going to end 😔