I'm new here and I'm hoping for maybe some reassurance, I have 4 beautiful children already but my new partner and I (I'm 39 he's 41). Conceived in April, we were due on Xmas day and super excited as it would have been his first child. On Tuesday I had the worst miscarriage, I didn't know how bad it could be. I lost over 30 clots bigger than my hands and so much blood. Luckily I headed straight to accident and emergency as soon as it started. I ended up in cervical shock and passed out and had to be resucitated. I then had to have surgery the next day to remove the rest. I'm a total train wreck and scared to death to use the bathroom, I feel lost and empty and sad and angry. It's been a totally traumatising experience. The gynecologist said it would be fine to try again after a month. Please if anyone has similar experiences could you share? Did anyone have normal pregnancies after such experiences? I'm scared but we so want to have our own child and to complete our family ☹️