Had a miscarriage in April, now I cant be happy for others

[Guest1233]

As the title says really. I was only early 5 weeks but in them few days of knowing our lives changed, we was even more excited about our future. I'm coming to the end of my degree and looking after my children i havnt even had time cry. I have talked alot but not really cried, I feel silly in a way coz i was so early.
I also have no excitement for others who has mentioned they are pregnant. I seem to pick at their life (in my head) I dont like how I'm becoming and worried I will become resentful of others.

I understand. I was also 5 weeks when I miscarried.
Everybody handles their grief differently, you will return to 'normal' when you have processed everything. I hope you are taking some time to yourself, it is so important. Sending love and best wishes to you

Thank you for your reply. I hope you are ok? I think that's what might be the problem no time for myself. I finish university in the next 5 days and even though my dissertation has kept me busy which I liked at first now i need it finished so I can process everything. I feel angry and it isnt like me at all.

How have you managed?

Gosh I can't imagine having to face deadlines. Coincidentally, my partner has his draft dissertation proposal due tomorrow (4 days after miscarriage!) so that's been tough for him. It is obviously far easier for me to take the time as I am currently childless!
I think being able to just sit with my thoughts has been important to help process things, I just managed to go on a run which I'm so happy about and it makes me feel like my body is doing something good. Can you get an extension on the dissertation? X

It gets better, I promise, but it's a natural process. It will happen for you again and you will be a parent soon enough.

Now I have kids I feel so blessed to have fallen pregnant 'that month' because otherwise my child wouldn't be him/her mind fuck! But don't worry you'll get there soon

Islandermum I got an extension I'm near the end now. Longing to gut my house and maybe decorate, that's something that helps me process my thoughts and I really enjoy making the house look new.
I hope your partner finds time to look after himself to, doing a degree is difficult in it's own right but dissertations are on another level.
Thank you again for your support I am really excited to take care of myself again.

flumpybear thank you I was hoping it was a natural process but I am an over thinker and felt I would be like this forever (dramatic I know).