Pregnant after third miscarriage really worried and stressed

[Mochiface]

Hi all,

So as the title suggest really. I have tested early as I felt like I was pregnant. Just an inkling, boobs aren't even hurting like they used to before a period or a pregnancy. Maybe my body has changed since my last miscarriage. Anyways, I've tested a couple of times and two days apart with First Response and comes up faint but definitely a positive. A line appears within a minute.

I understand that a line is a line and I think I am still a couple days away from my missed period depending what my cycle is like as this is my first cycle since my missed miscarriage. But it's really worrying me and I know I need to just step away from the tests. But never had a line this early, now I'm convincing myself it's ectopic or something is wrong cos the lines has still faint or not gone darker..

I keep knicker checking just waiting for bleeding to start and this whole thing is already crippling me.

I suppose ive just contained all these thoughts in my head I just needed somewhere to write them down and knowing someone is hearing me out.

Thanks for reading :)

Congrats @Mochiface! I remember you from your kind comments on my thread before about my mmc (12 weeks, pmp) and early mc (chemical). I know it's impossible to not worry, but as they say, each pregnancy is different and there is no reason to think this one will not turn out to be healthy and successful! I really wish you all the best and my heart goes out to you for all the anxiety you must be feeling right now. Feel free to join us on the First Pregnancy Missed Miscarriage thread too, despite the title, there are amazing ladies on there who have been through several miscarriages as well and are now pregnant again and facing similar anxieties. I have everything crossed for you and I hope you can enjoy this pregnancy as much as possible!!! Sending hugs!

Thanks @sadtoday21.

I remember you too, lovely to hear from you and your kind words. I hope you're well.

I will definitely take a look at this thread and catch up on it!

I have little blood streaks in my CM today. The hubs was saying maybe it's implantation but It's really made me feel a lot more anxious but I suppose it's out of my control. I have booked the GPs , phone consultation for Monday because they couldn't get me in for an appointment till the end of May. EGU would not see me unless it was something like I was bleeding. So hopefully I will get bloods in soon if I make it that far, ha.

Virtual hugs.

How's things your end?

Oh @Mochiface I'm so so sorry you are going through this right now. There is so much anxiety with a new pregnancy after mc. How many weeks are you now? I have read a lot of posts where ladies have some blood-streaked CM and everything is ok, so please don't give up hope just yet. I do think it's great that you are going to talk to the GP and I think you should go to the EPU and insist on a scan if the pain, bleeding, or your anxiety gets worse.

Thanks very much for asking after me, I am still in a holding pattern waiting to be cleared from CX for the partial molar pregnancy. I think I will be cleared next week (fingers crossed) and then on to ttc at the end of this month! I'm so terrified and excited at the same time. Just really hope the third time is the charm.

I hope the fourth time is the lucky time for you! Keep us posted and know that we are thinking of you. Sending you hugs right back!

Hi @sadtoday1

I should be four weeks now, so super early so I'm very surprised the tests showed positive so quickly. First time tested on the 8th. and the red streaks in my mucus had turned my cm pinkish as there's so much more blood today which coincides with my period. I'm trying to tell myself it's implantation or breakthrough bleeding but it's really not convincing me because of what's happened recently.. Since I've found out, it's just made me a nervous wreck and agitated and definitely having a good cry now.

I spoke to the GP today and next available blood test is Wednesday morning, let's see if I still need that appointment at that point..

I'm really sorry to hear @sadtoday1 but I have my fingers and toes crossed for you lovely. It is terrifying isn't it, why can't we all just have it plain and simple and who knew it would be this complicated and heart breaking. Wishing you the best and we will catch up again soon!

Hi @Mochiface! How are you doing today? Any updates? I hope that the bleeding has stopped now and all is well. 4 weeks is early enough that it could be implantation! It's so hard to always hope and fear at the same time, isn't it?

Wishing you all the best for a successful and happy pregnancy!

Hi @Mochiface, I really hope you are doing ok. Did the bleeding stop yet? I have everything crossed for you that this is the one that sticks! xxx

I started this blog about miscarriage as a way to help deal with some of the pain and frustration I've been feeling lately. I would love for you to join it and offer some wisdom as well, given all you have been through! My hope is that it will help women in similar situations feel less alone and find answers post-mc.

Here is the link, in case you are interested in the project: mcandbeyond.weebly.com/

Hi Sadtoday1,

Sorry I haven't replied. Just received a call from the hospital today to say my hormones are worringly low as it's only five. Repeating test on Friday. I also did a blood test at the doctors earlier yesterday morning before the one at hospital in evening as the doctors one I had to wait till next week for the second result and won't get that result till Friday morning.

I told my husband who said just wait till Friday after the second blood test and see what happens. It really frustrated me because see what happens ? It's not going to suddenly go back up and he said I can't compare it to my other pregnancies.. and it's like, these are facts and figures that we can't argue with. I just want him to acknowledge my feelings because I am clearly upset. It's awkward now cos I'm parked up in the car park ready for work. But I'm going to be late because I'm trying to calm myself down from crying and I have very red eyes and nose after a cry. So it's obvious.

Aw thanks for checking up on me Sadtoday1, I really needed it today because family and husband are all just like wait and see. Just see that I'm heartbroken and upset.. it's like no one understands.

I will definitely check the blog out.

I'm so sorry I keep spelling your screen name wrong. So rude of me

@Mochiface there are simply no words to express what you must be feeling right now. I'm so so sorry and sending you virtual hugs. 5 is very low hormone levels indeed - have you done another HPT? I think, and I really hate to say this, that it sounds like a chemical pregnancy (I had one last month at around 5 weeks). At that time, my levels were 45 hcg (blood levels) and I have five days of positive HPTs, before the line grew fainter and then blood levels dropped back to 7.5 around the time my period came. Of course, the second blood test could show an increase and I really hope that is the case, but best to be prepared for the worst too I think, which it sounds like you are.

I know what you mean about wanting your DH to acknowledge your feelings. I feel like this all the time. I think our partners sometimes just want to fix things and move on, whereas we want comfort and to be heard and to feel the loss in order to heal. I'm here to talk anytime you need someone to listen. Thinking of you xxx.

Hi op, you tested early right? So if you've just implanted your levels will be super low. At 4 weeks mine were 7.

Hey @Sadtoday21 and @howlongcanausernamebebeforeits so I got my results from the doctors. I had a blood test on the same day as the hospital. Hospital in the evening and was five and doctors in the morning and it was six. I started to bleed properly yesterday and heavier today with a lot of clots so it's the end of this pregnancy.

I'm sorry what you had to go through as well @sadtoday21 , I just didn't test anymore as I kind of knew what was happening. Completely agree with you on the DH thing, we made up in a couple of hours.

Really appreciate you girls replying, it means a lot.

I've booked three weeks off work from next week so I can get away and rejig myself.

I'm so sorry @Mochiface, you must be devastated. Are they doing any testing on you to find a possible cause? I hope you can rest and find some peace in the coming weeks. Thinking of you xxx.