“No heart beat anymore”.. 2nd mmc

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I can never forget that day Jun 22 2017 that’s when I was told my baby had no heart beat anymore at the 12wk scan.. after 1.5 years of trying Jan 26 this year there was that magical double lines... thought I’d definitely had it this time.. 7wk scan showed a very slight heart beat but baby was tiny (more or less 5 wks). Honestly at that point I knew something wasnt right already.. then I started to have the brown discharge last Friday. Been to a&e twice, had a scan arranged on Monday. No more heart beat...
Ive been referred to doctor Shehata’s recurrent miscarriage clinic since first mmc and have been on steroids and aspirin and had been having fragmin injection and virginal protestrone too.. nothing helped. Don’t know what to believe anymore and there’s no hope...
Waiting for a natural miscarriage right now and having cramps and bleeding becoming heavier. I’m in a dark dark hole there’s no light that’s all I can feel...

I’m so sorry.
It’s the shittiest place to be. Hope you have people round you to hold you tight.

Thank you. It’s horeible. I just want to get through the mc sooner and I can try to move on..

I'm so sorry. I MC 3 weeks ago. It so horrible, I wouldn't wish this on anyone. Look after yourself.

Thanks so much for your reply LillyLeaf.. hugs...

I've found out today I've had a missed
Miscarriage (second in a row) - it's awful but just sending virtual hug to you! X

I'm so sorry to hear - it's an absolute shit hole to be in. It's almost two weeks since I've had medical management as I had no signs of miscarrying.. had two natural ones before that and no live children. Look after yourself even when you don't want to

I'm so sorry, hope you have support around you.

Thanks for your replies lovely people. Hugs to you all. So sorry sess123 and Mochiface you have to experience the same horrible thing...
My husband is with me. Just took painkiller and hope to get some sleep when the pain is still bearable..

I'm so sorry, it is a shitty thing to go through. I lost 4 babies along the way including on RMC treatment. First time round I could just about swallow the 'just bad luck' line and pick myself up, not so easy after that. Be very kind to yourself, get through this next awful bit and take the time you need to heal. The recurrent miscarriage threads here are a lifesaver when you need a rant at the unfairness of it all.

Thanks Patchworksack xx glad I have somewhere and somebody to talk to..