I took the kids for a private scan on Tuesday, they wanted to see the baby. Horrifically instead of seeing the baby on the screen I was told there was no longer a heartbeat. The kids were all asking questions, I was on my own with them and in total shock. I think my 8 and 7 year old are traumatised. I've tried to be honest with them and tell them in an age appropriate way what's happening, but I don't know if I'm doing the right thing.
I've been in a lot of pain today, and they know the baby has to come out. My 4 year old's tummy hurts and he's loosing his baby too. It makes me want to cry. I want to gather them up and cuddle them all tight and tell them everything is OK and it's all a horrific dream but I can't 1) it's not true and 2) I've spent all day in bed cramping on and off unable to move much and just want to be left alone.
Everyone is so sad and I don't know how to make this better for them. I feel I'm rambling now but I'm in so much pain and I just don't know what to say to them. What do I do? What do I say? How do I make this all better for my babies?
I should be 14 weeks, I had no idea anything was wrong, the kids just wanted to meet their new baby. We thought we would just see a wriggly baby on the screen, not be told the most horrific news.