Hi
I feel like this sounds stupid and feel free to let me know if you feel the same!
I suffered a miscarriage in July thid year. It was only early, between 8 and 9 weeks. It wasn’t a planned pregnancy but I’m in a stable relationship, we had been together 5 and a half years at this point, with a good home and we both make good money.
Its now 5 months on and, especially at night, I suffer from periods of horrific depression and sometimes I struggle to sleep and i know that the miscarriage is the cause of this.
All of this is made worse by the fact that my sister is 2 days overdue. I am so excited as currently all of my nieces and nephews are on my partners side of the family. I love her but her relationship with the dad didn’t come about in a good way, they haven’t been together for 2 years and I feel they are rushing. Not to mention her partner cannot be trusted as he as been trying to flirt with me via messages.
Im due to start my law masters in February in order to become a Solicitor, and my partner is busy running his business. We are also saving for a house deposit. So i understand that it was not the right time for us to have a child and maybe my miscarriage was natures way of letting me know.
Im just not sure how to move on from it. I can go a while without feeling it, but when I do it really affects me.
Any suggestions would be appreciated x