Hi all I'm 36 year old lady I've had long term issues with my fertility but have been lucky enough to have two children x unfortunately I've also had two miscarriages first was natural and the most recent one December last year was the one I'm struggling with. I opted for a erpc after my twelve week scan showed there was no heart beat my surgeon punctured my womb and I then had to spend Christmas pretending all was fine even though I was still pregnant with my deceased baby i think it this bit that has traumatised me most as with Christmas face approaching I keep thinking I was pregnant this time last year was the baby alive on one of my children's birthday.
I'm also struggling with my age what that means for my already problematic fertility and this desperate need for another baby it's consuming me 😔 I just feel lost in a sad and angry bubble.