I had a miscarriage a couple of weeks ago. We had been ttc for over two years, had fertility treatment etc. Obviously I was completely devastated, but I thought I had quite quickly come to terms with the loss and after a week was feeling sad, but stronger in myself and positive about future potential pregnancy.
The last couple of days have been horrendous. I am overwhelmed by such strong sadness. I cried for 5 hours on Thursday and could not stop. In the past I had mental health problems and the level of emotion I have felt feels like the way I did when I was very unwell. I’m finding it very frightening and have scared myself with some of my thoughts (feeling like I want to self harm, though don’t think I will act on it). I am lucky that I have very supportive friends and family who know I am struggling to some extent. I have a therapist who has been very helpful. My doctor signed me off work until next week and I’m hoping being back at work might make me feel more normal, but I work in a high stress, emotionally demanding job, and I’m a little worried about what it will be like.
I know in the scheme of things two weeks is no time at all, and if I were talking to someone else I would say of course you may feel all over the place. I know hormones are playing a part too. It’s just very hard to make sense of how I’m feeling and hard to listen to the advice I would give others.
Have others felt this way? How long for the worst to pass? What helped?