Anxiety is rocketing since miscarriage

[BirthdayKake]

I've lost nearly all my confidence and motivation. I just want to be pregnant again. Never knew a miscarriage was so drawn out - my baby died weeks ago and I physically lost it on October 4th but I'm still getting positive pregnancy tests. No one talks about this. I'm gutted.

I've become ridiculously shy. I thought someone was talking about me in the supermarket yesterday and I went bright red and started shaking. We're redecorating the living room to distract ourselves but have pretty much run out of money now.

Sometimes I just think I want to be with my baby :(

Awww OP, I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's so bloody tough. Please believe me, it does get better - at the moment you still have the pregnancy hormones in your body, in my experience they tend to overpower all rational and logical thought.
My most recent miscarriage I hibernated for six weeks, just went to work then home. I couldn't even bring myself to talk to friends.

About 2 weeks after my negative test I started to feel more like me, and I've been able to talk with friends which had helped hugely.

Take this time to only do things that make you happy, if that is eating chocolate and sleeping - so be it. You need time to heal and process. Believe that you won't always feel this way - you never forget, but it stops being so overwhelming. I also found researching ttc/recurrent miscarriage (relevant to me) also helped as it felt that I was doing something constructive, taking control of my destiny.

Be kind to yourself

PositivePeach you've actually really helped me. For some reason, despite the fact I'm still getting positive tests, I never actually stopped to think that the hormones are still affecting me. I'm normally a really hormonal person anyway ie terrible PMT. So maybe that's it? I don't think DH understands. He definitely didn't the time of the loss and was amazing, but I think now he just wants to move on. Well so do I, but I can't while my body still thinks I'm pregnant!!

I've stopped crying... For now. Thanks so much xx

He definitely DID at the time of the loss*

It’s the hormones! It’s the grief...it’s everything!! I’m going through it too xxx I still got a faint positive test at 4.5 weeks post medical management for mmc. The test I did 2.5 weeks after was as positive as you could get!!! I’m hoping next week will see a negative result and we can start again!

Thanks sadness. Sorry you're going through it too

Hi birthdaykake. I’m so sorry you are feeling like that. If it makes you feel any better I feel like this too. I mc 14 sep though just feel so low from it. I have struggled with my mental health in the past and came off meds to ttc. I think the fact we are getting into winter and it’s getting darker doesn’t help me. I’m mostlet struggling with work and finding it overwhelming having to speak to colleagues. I’m waiting on a referral through work for counselling. Something like that might help you though from how you are describing it it does sound like it’s linked to the hormones, I think mine is more mental health related as had first af a week ago.
I’m sorry for taking over your thread. Sometimes just nice to speak to others who are going through the same. I hope you feel better soon xx