My angel baby

[MrsW170617]

I come on here cause I didn’t quite know what else to do?
Beings it’s pregnancy & infant loss awareness week I know of a few people putting up about their losses on social media..
I struggle cause I feel like I can’t?
In March 2016, I was 8/9 weeks pregnant with my 3rd baby. Was a massive shock to say the least but something didn’t feel right from the beginning? I ended up losing the baby the day before my eldest daughters birthday.
No one other than my Husband knew I was pregnant. No one still to this day (other than GP) knows I’ve had a miscarriage.
I’ve not had a lot of support/help from anyone ever since.
I think about the baby a lot.
I had a strong feeling it was a boy.
I just think what if? & how different things would be?
Is it something that gets easier in time? Will I ever get over it?

I'm so sorry for your loss OP Is there someone you could confide in and talk to about it? Sometimes it helps to discuss it and work through your feelings, as painful as it might be. I lost 2 babies and it occasionally still hits me. You never forget, but hopefully we will heal.

The only person I feel I can talk to is my Husband or my GP, who has now referred me for counselling.
So sorry to hear about your losses, it really isn't a nice thing to go through.
I never expected it to hit me this hard but deep down it rips me apart.
I don't think I can ever get over it, but hopefully one day I'll leave to deal with the pain x